Dear Anna Marciniak
I noticed that there is a part of me that does not allow me to connect deeply with the horses. It is a part that keeps me on guard to not be hurt. So opening up seems to be a slow process but at least one that is moving. I have to give myself permission that it is ok to feel openly and honestly. There is a fear of loosing the “things” / people / animals that I love most hence I am guarding myself and prepare myself for that very moment, anticipating it, completely forgetting that there is life to be lived.
George is pushing that button as he is older and him being my first horse (the horse I always dreamt of as a child), just lately I became very aware of that fact of me actually pushing him away, keeping him on distance so that I am able to cope with the loss.
And I also do this with the others a bit different but still.
So here is the video that shows me trying to open this up more …
Anna MarciniakHello Dear Petra Webstein, thank you for sharing this very private and personal moment of your transformation (with the support from George). LIFE IS TO BE LIVED – whatever happens in 18 seconds, in one hour, tomorrow, in a year or in 10 years time – is unknown. LIFE IS NOW, and horses, like no other animals, are passing this lesson on to us so deeply. By keeping your guards high, you are not pushing away George, Dear Petra. You are pushing and keeping away LIFE – YOUR LIFE: how much you will enjoy every moment, how much you will drink the ambrosia of Life. It’s not another issue, to what I feel, it’s the issue that has many faces and you cannot believe how many people share the same feeling, the underlying belief of which is that if we enjoy too much – the enjoyment will end. So better not to enjoy too much, and then maybe the greater eye will skip us, someone with power will not see how much fun we have and will let us be for one more day… But at the end of the day, the realization comes that it’s your life which you don’t live to the fullness, it’s such a waste not to do that! 
❤️❤️❤️ You have a life that is a dream, your home, your horses, freedom to BE WHO YOU ARE – explore it Petra ❤️ And allow yourself to have THE BIGGEST FUN POSSIBLE, because life grows when it’s enjoyed, pleasure grows when it’s experienced, awareness loves to experience itself, exploration is the food of the explorers!!! Please send me the video in which you have as much fun as possible, and you are connecting all the BF Program exercises into one session in which you allow yourself to be happy and to have fun, and do whatever you want to do 
Anna MarciniakHello Petra Webstein, how are you doing my dears!? ❤️❤️
Petra WebsteinHello dear Anna Marciniak. I am fine. I am just having a total technology break down so communication is very bad. Be with me by tomorrow something should be in place and working again. Thank you for asking me.
Petra WebsteinHello Anna Marciniak, I have my computers back up and running again. However, I feel very tired tonight and not inspired to do something with the horses. So please bear with me for a moment longer please. Thank you for your patience, Anna.
Anna MarciniakPetra, of course – REST ❤️❤️❤️ nothing changes like rest, and nothing is accelerating the shift as much as a good rest
Petra WebsteinThank you Anna Marciniak that is really true. Lots of sleep and resting and just hanging out with my beautiful horse friends.
Petra WebsteinI notice that there is a lot of integration going on as well. New thoughts are emerging. I always felt that in the time of resting these things are integrating much better.
Petra WebsteinAnna Marciniak you are doing such a beautiful work with Falcao, wow. I am practising with my guys when I feed them, slowing down even more, waiting for the connection and communication to happen. George has become so interested and now even more than ever (he showed me that a long time ago) I can just stand there, holding a feeling and a picture of something that I would like to see to happen and he follows that cue. It looks like magic from the outside but we are deeply connected on the inside. With the new things I learned from you, I am even more able to apply this now because I became more confident that this is the magic energy band that holds us in communication. With George I can see/feel when he has an intention and then actions it. It is an energy rising and his body falls in place with that. And then he puts his wings on, so beautiful. I am still to have the most beautiful dance with him.
Anna MarciniakMUSIC MUSIC MUSIC to my ears, Petra Webstein ❤️❤️❤️ I am so happy for you and so proud of you, I know what a great deal of work you did here in this class 
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Petra WebsteinThank you Anna Marciniak I appreciate your comment. More soon to come!!!!!!
