Hello Anna

Thank you for your message on Facebook messenger last night where “you were saying that you will comment your video first thing tomorrow morning … now it’s Sunday and I have family over.” I hope you had a nice time with your family and friends and found rest and piece for your weekend.

Your message made me feel a little that I was intruding in your space and left me with the question in my space if there are expectations that are not spoken about.

I then remembered you saying that I can contact you any time (but through FB messenger to alert you) and that I am, while in this BreakingFree program with you, your first priority and that you will respond to me within 10 to 20 minutes after I messaged you.

I also got confused about you saying in that message from yesterday that you will have a look at my video??? I can not recall you saying to me that I should take a video for you to look at.

You also said that you would show me a video after 3 days into this first section and when I have done my first day with the horses.

Your work is extraordinary and this is why I decided I wanted to do this special program with you. However I struggle with the teaching structure / organisation of this program.

I don’t know what is being asked of me and I am not clear when and how we connect. This is confusing me which takes away from experience of the program.

I can not make assumptions to what is true to you. So I would like to state how I experience this so far and would like you to respond to it from your point of view:

I would like clarification about our meetings, are they meant to be on weekdays only (Monday to Saturday). You never spoke to this specifically.
Personally it would feel best if we had a dedicated time on these days because at the moment I am rotating everything around in my day trying to be available and never knowing, do we have a meeting, when do we have a meeting and through what means (Skype etc). It feels exhausting for me and has a big influence on my day. 
This program with you is very intimate for me (this is also why I have chosen the one on one program with you) and in order to be able to open up more and more towards a person, I need to be able to build trust. Can we please address my feeling of insecurity?
I am desiring you to tell me if you feel that I have not come as far as you expected that for example that video you wanted to show me will have to wait another day or so. This is because I am eagerly participating in your program. I am not wanting you to fix me, I am wanting you to respond to me.
I am wanting to feel that I am able to speak what is on my mind openly and not causing a dent on our relationship and hence shut down more about what I would want to communicate. This letter to you is very uncomfortable to me and requires a lot of courage from me.

I am excited about the program and would like to get the best out of it hence my need for clarity, so that I can again fully engage in our work together. Can we look at these things together and form a mutual beneficial platform to continue our journey together in joy, appreciation & success?LikeShow More Reactions CommentSeen by 11Anna Marciniak

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Anna Marciniak

Anna MarciniakPetra Webstein, thank you for all your remarks, please let me run this Course. There are many tensions that we are touching while following this unique program, and some of them, as we discussed before, can manifest on the way – now, it is very important NOT TO close the situations within the rules / timetables and not to follow these tensions and seek answers in them, but to see them, acknowledge them, and act differently. It’s not by mistake, but on very thoughtfully designed purpose that this program has no fixed structure, so we can adjust everything to match the situation. It’s a very good opportunity for you to try to be more flexible, which I see can be quite difficult. 

My wish for you is to be happy. But not because we follow your tensions, but because I am opening you to be more flexible and see that you can be happy and satisfied even when ONE THING does not go accordingly to the plan or expectations 🙂 We are in touch everyday, but I also will have days off – some of them will happen unexpectedly.

Whenever you are unsure about the hours or times when we connect or the structure of our course, instead of trying to control me – allow yourself to do BodyMarc Session, go for a walk, spend some time with other people or your horses doing things you love and enjoy. 

Why this is so important? I see that control is very important for you, and it is very good, we do not want to fight it. For the time being, we just want to see it and start to notice when and how does it manifest in your Life. My wish is to show you that you have always a choice, that you have many possibilities in which you can act, and that you do not have to follow your urge to control everything, no matter how “justified” it may look to you from the outside.LoveShow More Reactions  · Reply ·  1  · 30 October 2017 at 18:01 · EditedRemove

Petra Webstein

Petra Webstein Thank you Anna Marciniak, now I know why I was smart enough to choose you to work with me. I can feel the truth of your words and I will need your words again.